Goodbye

It's that time of year. College students are going back to school which means that goodbyes are just around the corner. It's sad to say it, but i dont want to say goodbye. One of my best friend's is leaving soon and i hate to say it, but i dont want her to go. She has always been there and i know that i will see her soon. It's sad to say goodbye because you dont know what is goign to happen in the future. It's a new thing and it's something that is uncomfortable. Everyone loves the comfortable and wants things to stay the same. The sad part is that nothing ever stays the same and in the end you have to say those goodbyes. It's not a goodbye because you will see them soon. Just keep a smile on your face and the tears to a minimum. In the end just know that things will only go up as long as you believe they. So say those goodbyes and just hope to see each other soon.

Ex

I can't sit here and say that i hate all of my exes. I actually am still friends with all of them. Yeah sometimes it gets awkward talking to them about new relationships and you wish that it could be instead. You hate talking to an ex who has there life in check while you are still lost in yours. I know i shouldn't complain because i have a book out. I know that is amazing, but it sucks trying to get a relationship started and in the end it isn't going so successfully. Why is it that you are the one trying so hard, while they just glide through the water. In the end we all have an ex who seems to be better off without you in their lives. You just need to know that you two weren't meant to be and then things will get better. I know that we couldnt have worked and i will be better off. It's a tough game, but everyone has to play it eventually.

Bummed

I know I really shouldnt be bummed right now, but what else am i supposed to feel. I was suppose to go out tonight with a great girl, but in the end it got canceled. She had to take care of her kid. i know that her kid comes first, but it just sucks coming home to my roommate with his girlfriend. I am so happy for them, but a part of someone craves for that. You wish that you could just call up a girl and just go see them. You wish that you could have secret jokes and be filled with giddy when they text you. I thought i was slowly getting that with this new girl, but the more and more i see everything i realize that it wasn't her. It was the fact that i was putting her into that mold. She is a great girl, but i dont think that we are good for each other. She has a kid and i don't. Maybe it's because i was so gung hoe on getting someone so i didnt feel so alone. I know that's not a good thing and i just think that i need to find a girl for me. Not for the lonilness or so i dont feel like such a loser when my roommate and his girlfriend are around me. In the end i am just bummed, but i will figure out how to not be bummed anymore. I know that i will smile and it will all in the end be better.