Bummed

I know I really shouldnt be bummed right now, but what else am i supposed to feel. I was suppose to go out tonight with a great girl, but in the end it got canceled. She had to take care of her kid. i know that her kid comes first, but it just sucks coming home to my roommate with his girlfriend. I am so happy for them, but a part of someone craves for that. You wish that you could just call up a girl and just go see them. You wish that you could have secret jokes and be filled with giddy when they text you. I thought i was slowly getting that with this new girl, but the more and more i see everything i realize that it wasn't her. It was the fact that i was putting her into that mold. She is a great girl, but i dont think that we are good for each other. She has a kid and i don't. Maybe it's because i was so gung hoe on getting someone so i didnt feel so alone. I know that's not a good thing and i just think that i need to find a girl for me. Not for the lonilness or so i dont feel like such a loser when my roommate and his girlfriend are around me. In the end i am just bummed, but i will figure out how to not be bummed anymore. I know that i will smile and it will all in the end be better.