Ex

I can't sit here and say that i hate all of my exes. I actually am still friends with all of them. Yeah sometimes it gets awkward talking to them about new relationships and you wish that it could be instead. You hate talking to an ex who has there life in check while you are still lost in yours. I know i shouldn't complain because i have a book out. I know that is amazing, but it sucks trying to get a relationship started and in the end it isn't going so successfully. Why is it that you are the one trying so hard, while they just glide through the water. In the end we all have an ex who seems to be better off without you in their lives. You just need to know that you two weren't meant to be and then things will get better. I know that we couldnt have worked and i will be better off. It's a tough game, but everyone has to play it eventually.

Bummed

I know I really shouldnt be bummed right now, but what else am i supposed to feel. I was suppose to go out tonight with a great girl, but in the end it got canceled. She had to take care of her kid. i know that her kid comes first, but it just sucks coming home to my roommate with his girlfriend. I am so happy for them, but a part of someone craves for that. You wish that you could just call up a girl and just go see them. You wish that you could have secret jokes and be filled with giddy when they text you. I thought i was slowly getting that with this new girl, but the more and more i see everything i realize that it wasn't her. It was the fact that i was putting her into that mold. She is a great girl, but i dont think that we are good for each other. She has a kid and i don't. Maybe it's because i was so gung hoe on getting someone so i didnt feel so alone. I know that's not a good thing and i just think that i need to find a girl for me. Not for the lonilness or so i dont feel like such a loser when my roommate and his girlfriend are around me. In the end i am just bummed, but i will figure out how to not be bummed anymore. I know that i will smile and it will all in the end be better.

Trust Me

I can see the doubt in your eyes
babe i have those same doubts
I've been burned too many times to count
this heart has those same scars
but I'm ready to fall for you if you'd let me

Trust me
don't be scared of me
don't be scared of greatness
i know it's an unknown territory, but we will fact it together
this is an unknown thing to me

I'm ready to fall
but i want you to push me off this cliff of doubt

Trust me
don't be scared of what we shared together
let the past be the past
Don't let it make us never know what true love is

he hurt you too much
you gave him too many chances
too many tears fell and too many broken promises
you sat alone at home wishing he would chance into that prince charming
save you on the white horse

well darling he wasn't your prince charming
I'll get that white horse and ride you off into the sunset you want
but you have to let me catch you
you have to trust me

I'll be easy on you
I'm scared about us, but i won't let it stop us

Trust me
don't be scared of what we shared together
let the past be the past
Don't let it make us never know what true love is

he burned you i know
your past has made you scared
but you can trust me
you can give me your hand
I'll protect you and catch you when you fall for me
just let it happen

I trust you to push me off the cliff of doubt
Don't stop us from finding greatness
let the past be the past
tear down those walls
and just trust me

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Approval/Acceptance

Approval is something that everyone wants in life. It's the thing that our society craves for. We want to be accepted into a group of people so that we can have friends. But when you look at the group of people and all they do is hate on each other is that approval that you really want. I would rather have no friends then have friends who hate on each other. Another form of approval is the one of your life decisions. you want people to approve of the decisions that you make in life. Either going to college or deciding to take another path. you want people to accept what you are doing and support it.

I feel at the end of the day the only thing that matters is your acceptance of yourself. You have to approve what you are doing and be able to man up for it. You need to look in the mirror and say that you are okay with what you are doing. If you can do that then nothing else matters. People's approval or acceptance will always change. Society is something that always changes and but you dont. Someone needs to look in the mirror and accept themselves. If they can do that then people's approval or acceptance you will come.

Break Ups

I just recently went through a break up. Breaks up are probably one of those things that people hardly want to go through. There are tears, hurtful words, and a sense of not being worth anything. Break ups are those types of monster that people try to aviod at all possible. With every break up their are many reactions. You can be sad and listen to a bunch of sad songs and have a good cry. You can be bitter and angry. You want to just tell that person every bad word int he dictionary and hope they have a horrible love life. Or the more reasonable one is that you could just accept it and move on. Everyone thinks that a break up is the end of the world. It just means that sadly one door is closing. It doesn't mean that you won't find that special someone. It means that you are one step closer to finding the "one" that everyone seeks to hope for.

Everyone needs to realize that when you go into a relationship that there is a chance of you guys ending things. You can never tell the future, but you have to realize that it's possible. You need to have a good cry, a good yelling, or just accpeting it. In the end though you need to realize that that chapter of your life might be over, but in the end another chapter still needs to be written. Life is too short to hold onto what will never be there again. People need to accpet and put a smile on their face. Break ups are part of life and it's a ride of passage. Just remember that it's not the end of the world and it's not meant to be. Just smile and let your heart be open for the future it has for you.

Great Nights

A great night doesn't have to be with a group of friends or a big party. A great night is what the little things bring you. Tonight for me was a great night. Yeah there was stressful moments where i wanted to ripe my hair out (although there really isn't any) and it was a hot mess, but that didnt make it a bad night either. It made me alert and it made me actually enjoy my customers even more. I actually got to joke around with them and share a couple of laughs with them. I have to say they were the funniest group of people i have known. One guy started chanting my name as he was leaving. Then after work me and a great friend of mine went to the gas station and got food. We then walked in the warm weather to our cars. That's what made it a great night was the fact that it was the little things that made it special. Just relaxing enjoying times with a great friend and sharing amazing laughter with complete strangers. Great nights dont have to be going out partying, but more of the small things. That's what makes my life amazing is the great nights that i have all the time.